New Year’s ‘resolutions’ 2012

31 12 2011

I’m not normally one for New Years Resolutions. Someone I know once said he didn’t as it wasn’t really necessary to wait for 1st January to make changes.

But sometimes I think we get lazy, and probably need the 1st January to prompt us to make changes that we know we need to make and would keep putting off otherwise.

So, I’m not sure I’m going to so much make New Year’s resolutions as much as these are some things I’m going to try to change next year. Some are more ambitious than others, and those seem to be the ones that are less measurable!

I guess they fall into categories:

Fairly average and straightforward resolutions

  • Quit Corrie (I know, I’m shocked too! – Though I should probably add, if they write out any major character, I’ll permit myself to watch that episode. My main reason for this addendum is because I know at some point they must be doing something for Betty 😦 )
  • Watch less tele – mainly try to cut back those times I have it on looking for something to watch rather than putting it on to specifically watch things.
  • Exercise more (also known as START exercising) and lose a little weight
  • Spend more time either on my violin or improve at the piano
  • Get my sewing machine back out and use it
  • Read more, and not just easy reads
  • Less of the irritating chattering
  • Reduce time spent on social media

A bit more deep, meaningful and more effort involved

  • Learn to love God more
  • Learn to think better of myself
  • Have a more positive outlook

I guess the first list are sort of nice ideas, the second list are a little more life-changing.

I’ve been working on this list for a week or two, so there may still be a couple of minor adjustments, but I think that’s pretty much it!

Do you have any resolutions this year? What’ve you gone for?





Grown up fizzy drinks are definitely healthier…

30 12 2011

Starting to think this blog should be titled “Maybe it’s just me, but…”

I’ve just spent the last week drinking pretty much just fizzy drinks, but I don’t feel bad about it. If I’d spent a week drinking just coke, lemonade and cherryade, I’d feel a)giddy, b)massive concern for my teeth and c)a fairly high level of guilt – so why don’t I?

I’ve spent the last week drinking Bitter Lemon and Canada Dry Ginger Ale. These are Christmas drinks, so you’re meant to drink them and only them all week, right?! 🙂

bitter lemoncanada dry





Lacking a clementine!

26 12 2011

I never eat the Clementine in my stocking, I admit it, I just bung it back in the fruit bowl a day or two later.

This year, I arrived at my parents a couple of days before Christmas to see that my stocking had formed part of the Christmas decorations, and so assumed the time had come that I was now too old for Santa to visit…

But Christmas morning there it was, with one big change: No Clementine in the toe, just a mini bag of Haribo!

I don’t know how I felt about this – total break in a tradition, but one that was completely pointless!

Do you still get a stocking? What’s in the toe of yours?





Have you ever looked at Christmas this way?

22 12 2011

The two biggest events in the Christian calendar are easily Christmas and Easter. I don’t know about you, but the way I always saw it was that Christmas is a lovely story about Jesus coming to us in love, whereas Easter was more traumatic, centring on Jesus death for us (but still in love).

But I don’t think the story in the bible is all as beautiful and candlelit “no crying He makes” as we like to picture it. And it’s not just that He was born in a smelly stable, or laid in an animals feeding trough.

God’s son was sent from heaven to earth with the purpose of dying for us at Easter, you can’t have one without the other. And while we know that Easter was a massive massive sacrifice, a couple of years ago in my housegroup we started to realise that actually, the transition from the perfection of heaven to this sinful earth and realising that that’s a sacrifice too! Not in the same way as the sacrifice we remember at Easter of course, as that’s when Christ took the sin of the world on Himself, that was the ultimate.

Wasn’t Christmas a sacrifice for Christ too?

[Disclaimer: I’m not very good at words or structuring sentences, so if I’ve said anything theologically inaccurate it may not be intentional, just badly put, so my apologies!]
[I like to think of my blog as the beginning of a thought that could probably do with some refining and rewriting a bit later – maybe I should put that somewhere!]

Happy Christmas 🙂





The real meaning of Advent

27 11 2011

Today is Advent Sunday, the fourth Sunday before Christmas.

When I was little, I’m sure I was always taught that advent was a time of looking forward to Christmas, looking forward to celebrating the anniversary of the birth of Christ. But today, I learnt that that’s not it’s actual meaning!

Advent means “coming” or “arrival”. It’s the time when we celebrate the anniversary of Christ’s first advent, and anticipate His second. So that’s celebrating the anniversary of the birth of Christ (rather than looking forward to celebrating it), and anticipating the day when He returns in glory!

Is this news to anyone else?!





A great write-up on anxiety disorders

4 11 2011

I used to have massive issues with anxiety disorders and anxiety attacks. Anyone who’s known me over the past 5-8 years will be able to see how many million times better I am these days (for which I am eternally grateful). But today on twitter someone tweeted a link to the article below, which is far and away the best article I’ve ever read on anxiety disorders. Advice for those who have them, and those who know those with them. I’m not saying I agree with every single bullet point, but the majority of this is spot on. Well worth reading if you suffer or have suffered previously, or are someone who knows someone who does:


how to decode a person with an anxiety disorder

things we are trying to do all the time:

  • be safe
  • things we can’t help but do all the time:

  • second-guess ourselves
  • behave impulsively and reactively
  • take everything personally
  • worry
  • worry
  • worry
  • have difficulty accepting compliments
  • have difficulty reciprocating friendly gestures
  • have difficulty finding the courage to respond
  • have difficulty not being suspicious of others’ intentions
  • make a huge deal out of the smallest thing
  • things you should keep in mind:

  • we’re scared of everything
  • pretty much all of the time
  • it’s an actual disorder
  • it manifests as impulsive behavior
  • you can’t fix us with words
  • telling us “worrying is silly” won’t make us stop worrying
  • it’ll only make us feel silly
  • and then we’ll worry even more
  • “oh god, am i worrying too much? what if they call me silly again?”
  • like that
  • also, we wear a lot of armor
  • cold, heavy, affection-proof armor with spikes
  • we constructed this armor as children
  • we’re fairly certain you will never be able to pry it apart
  • but there is a nice person under there, we promise
  • things you can do for a friend with an anxiety disorder:

  • stick around
  • ask them if they’re comfortable in a place or situation
  • be willing to change the place or situation if not
  • activities that help them take their mind off of things are good!
  • talk to them even when they might not talk back
  • (they’re probably too afraid to say the wrong thing)
  • try not to take their reactions (or lack thereof) personally
  • (the way they expresses themself is distorted and bent because of their constant fear)
  • (and they knows this)
  • give them time to respond to you
  • they will obsess over how they are being interpreted
  • they will anticipate being judged
  • it took me four hours just to type this much
  • even though i sound casual
  • that’s because i have an anxiety disorder
  • things you shouldn’t do:

  • tell us not to worry
  • tell us we’ll be fine
  • mistake praise for comfort
  • ask us if we are “getting help”
  • force us to be social
  • force us to do things that trigger us
  • “face your fears” doesn’t always work
  • because—remember—scared of everything
  • in fact, it would be more accurate to say we are scared of the fear itself
  • emergency action procedure for panic attacks:

  • be calm
  • be patient
  • don’t be condescending
  • remind us that we’re not “crazy”
  • sit with us
  • ask us to tighten and relax our muscles one by one
  • remind us that we are breathing
  • engage us in a discussion (if we can talk, then we can breathe)
  • if we are having trouble breathing, try getting us to exhale slowly
  • or breathe through our nose
  • or have us put our hands on our stomach to feel each breath
  • ask us what needs to change in our environment in order for us to feel safe
  • help us change it
  • usually, just knowing that we have someone on our side willing to fight our scary monsters with us is enough to calm us down
  • if you have an anxiety disorder:

  • it’s okay.
  • even if you worry that it’s not okay.
  • it’s still okay. it’s okay to be scared. it’s okay to be scared of being scared.
  • you are not crazy. you are not a freak.
  • i know there’s a person under all that armor.
  • and i know you feel isolated because of it.
  • i won’t make you take it off.
  • but know that you are not alone.




  • Praying like a monkey?

    30 10 2011

    I’ve finally managed to sit down and watch the first episode of “Fry’s Planet Word”, which is a five part documentry with the marvellous Stephen Fry all about language. I’d tell you more about it, but so far I’m only 15 minutes into the first episode!

    (It turns out this episode is only available on iPlayer til 9pm tonight, but can also be found here.)

    What’s really struck me is a piece near the beginning (around 10min in) about a monkey called Lana. She’s been taught to make sentences on a machine: things like “please machine give piece of apple fullstop” and “please machine give chocolate fullstop”. Fry tells us that while this is clever it’s not using language like a human does. Lana can construct a basic sentence, but can’t initiate conversation. She just request things; tries to get what she wants.

    Fry says that this is different to humans, and a lot of the time that’s completely the case. But I think there are times we can, unintentionally, be just like this! Maybe it’s just me, but when I pray, sometimes it’s so easy to just focus on what I want. It might be asking for something selfishly, or it might be something as well-meaning as asking for healing for a friend, but either way, it’s so easy to come to God with a shopping list of requests, and not be focussing on developing a relationship with our God as our Lord and Friend.

    Sometimes, in prayer, our language skills can be very chimp like indeed!

    (As an aside, I’m now 45min in and there’s a fascinating sign language segment – very worth watching!)





    My SCL – faking being bad at sword drill

    29 10 2011

    So I read a blog called Stuff Christians Like, which is basically a humourous look at the funny things we do as Christians. (And I thoroughly recommend it!). It’s kind of about the stuff that get’s between us and God is you want to Jesus Juke it!

    I found myself doing something the other day that sounds like an SCL post, so I thought I may as well share it!

    At housegroup, normally within the study there’s a few bible passages to look up right? Well, when I was in Sunday school and at Girls’ Brigade, I was pretty good at sword drill (click the link, it’s not as violent as it sounds!), I could find a passage (especially in the New Testament) pretty quickly!

    So bringing it back to the housegroup evening, if you hear “shall we look at John 3v16?” You think “easy – only one verse and I know I can read it without fumbling!” But, if they ask for a whole chapter which you just *know* is going to be full of long and complicated words, I don’t know about you, but after initially going into auto-pilot and finding it at speed, I’ll find myself slowing down, flicking intentionally past it, maybe pretending I can’t find it, (all the time with a finger in the right page), so I look like I’m trying hard but just can’t find it! Just waiting for someone to get there before me so they can face all those words.

    Then as soon as they’ve declared they’ve found the passage then, oh look, I’m there ready to follow it 🙂

    Does anyone else do this? Or was this just a confession I shouldn’t have made?!





    The Daily Post: People are too dependent on technology: agree or disagree?‏

    23 10 2011

    This morning at church I had my first go at doing the projector. This was a little more complicated than the last church I did this regularly in, including recording the sermon, uploading it to the web and burning CDs but seemed pretty doable! As it happens, this was meant to be a pretty straightforward service, but between one of the songs being wrong, a guitar string breaking, one microphone not working and problems with the computer picking up sound for the recording, it was a little hectic.

    A couple of years ago I was at a Christian holiday thing, and the 20-30s venue was in a marquee. One night, the power just wasn’t working, so for one night, and one night only, we experienced life with no technology! It was beautiful. Three people dispersed themselves throughout the group with acoustic guitars, and we just sang songs of worship that we all knew, it was incredible.

    Now don’t get me wrong, technology has so so many advantages, but yes, we do get dependent on it. Sometimes it’s good to have everything fall apart to remind us that we can live without it! Those problems this morning didn’t stop us worshipping!





    Sleep

    21 10 2011

    Just a quick thought today.

    They say that time goes fastest when you’re enjoying yourself….
    We must really enjoy the time we spend asleep!